Hello, Mistress Yuliya Kate asked for what initiated my kink, to be a more interesting read.
I am not really a sub, but like to give up control of an intimate encounter just a little bit. I am very interested in getting sex with nearly every attractive female that I meet. I doubt I would be happy, at least at this time, with any cuckhold slave arrangement. Had an experience several... decades ago, in college, where I was on the hunt for a romp, without much success, and "settled" for a tall, heavy black lady a few years older than me. What a life changing experience.

After several very good nights of sex, which I kept hidden from the people in my dorm (shame on me), she maneuvered me into a 69 position, which was hardly my favorite. To this day, I have a bit of trouble getting and giving pleasure at the same time. My amazon friend, though, had no intention of using the position as foreplay, she was into it for the long haul. Luckily, she was passionate, patient, persistent, and tasted great She blew a big fart directly in my nose just as she got me off. I bucked, wiggled, and tried to throw her off of me, but I was also ejaculating in her mouth, feeling great. What a contrast. It had to be intentional. Embarrassed and disgusted, I broke off contact with her.

It wasn't until much later in life that I allowed myself to think, feel, and have desire about that encounter. I'm a bit ashamed to admit that I cannot remember this lady's last name (but vividly remember what she smelled like) I have never shared this experience with another human being, who knows who I am. Probably could never be as intense and draining as the first time. Or, could it?